There are times I do not understand our Lord and identify with how Mary and Marthe must have felt when Jesus took so long in coming. Lazarus had died and had been dead four days before Jesus arrived. They both did not understand and said to Jesus: “Lord if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” (John 11:21;32)
They wondered if Jesus really did love Lazarus, or really loved them for that matter. They wondered why He had taken so long and perhaps allowed such sorrow and suffering to take place.
Abraham must have also said to himself “I do not understand,” when the Lord asked him to sacrifice Isaac his only son. Moses must have wondered about it too, spending forty years in the wilderness before God called him to free the slaves in Egypt. Joseph must have said “I do not understand,” many times when he was betrayed by his brothers; sold into slavery; framed by Potiphar’s wife; unjustly thrown into prison; and then forgotten in prison. Even his father Jacob, must have cried “I do not understand” when he lost his favourite son.
I do not understand all of the ways in which God deals with us and question His motives, timing and purpose at times. But I do know that He wants me to trust Him. I see with my own children that I have this desire for them to trust me. Trust that I know what is best for them, that my rules are there to protect them and that my discipline is there to help them. I want them to trust my heart and that my motivation is love, that I see the bigger picture.
In fact when Jesus speaks to Mary and Marthe, He says to them in essence: “I know you don’t understand, but I am telling you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God.” (John 11:40)
All the saints above did eventually see the glory of God and we too will eventually see the glory of God in the things we do not understand right now. Then everything will make sense in the light of God’s glory.
We only need to trust in who He is and the promises He has made. What I am realising is that there may be delays, there may be sorrow, suffering and there may be days that I really question God’s love for me, but all of this will eventually reveal the glory of God.
If you believe, you will see the glory of God.
Phil 4:19 “And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.”
Help me Father to trust Your heart. To keep my eyes of faith focused on You, to keep believing, knowing that eventually I will see the glory of God revealed. Even though I do not understand, help me to wait on your timing in all things. In Jesus Name.